I’m still writing like you wanted me to.
It does “get some of it out”. You were right. It wasn’t a dumb idea like I thought it would be. I’ll try to write more. It really does help (so you win the bet on that one…I concede…dammit).
The road is curved, and rough, and not lit clearly. It’s ominous and not friendly. There are people and stops on that road that are helping us keep moving along it. They are beacons between the moments of uncertainty. They help us through our biggest moments of uncertainty.
We honor you by taking those steps down the road.
We remember you with every single step.
“Just breathe hon.”
I try. I really really do.
We move not away from you, but towards what you wanted for us.
(I know I’ve been lost a bit…I’ve never been good with directions. But Miri is absolutely trailblazing right now. I imagine your proud smile all the time.)
I hope so much that we make you proud. We’re doing our best.
I’m trying. I’m doing. I hope you know that (so so much).